Well. :D

Not sure how to put it, but things are looking up.

Steven, actually. Just him. For some reason, my earlier suspicions about him are dissipating. Still hovering, but significantly thinner.

He's just so sweet. He had had a big fight with one of his best friends tonight, and I cheered him up a bit, but he got depressed again later. And he didn't want to make me listen to him be depressed, but I kind of forced him to get it out, you know? I do that with a few other friends. It always seems to work. Get the problem out into the open, and then work on it till it goes away. So that's what I did, and it worked for a while, but then his friend must've texted him again or something, because he said something about the problems restarting? and he kind of went down. And then here's the kicker. He APOLOGIZED. To me. When I was the one who made him talk to me about it in the first place. He says, "im sorry for jerking you around with my emotions all day.. i really didnt mean to"

And then before I can respond, he says, "So, hi. What's up?" trying to change the subject. Is it just me, or does that seem unrealistically sweet?

Anyway, long story short, I cheered him up again (I think, he told me I was making him smile) and then told him go to bed, even though he wanted to stay up and talk more. So sweet. :D

An elaborate hoax to make himself seem caring and awesome? Maybe. But that just sounds like a conspiracy theory, ridiculous, the more I think about it.

Anyway. We'll know soon enough. He's coming to the gym on Friday. At 6:30.

I'm really really super duper excited. And so is he. He said he had butterflies.

I went and screamed into my pillow for an hour after we said goodbye.

I'm so unreasonably excited, I want to crawl into a hole and stay there with my happiness. Weird, I know. But I don't know what to do with myself!!!

Even though I don't want him to do it over my opinion, and told him so, I think he's gonna cut his hair. This just gets crazier and crazier. There's no way he could care that much about what I think, and yet I think he does. Or something.

And to add to the list of things right about Steven: he loves shooting. This is a direct copy and paste. Ignore the grammar mistakes. I think they're cute. :3

"i love shooting to haha, and swimming. cooking, idk how to cook lol. does top ramen count? and pb&j's?"

ISNT THAT THE CUTEST THING YOU'VE EVER READ?!!!!

Every time I add up his qualities in my head (minus the hair, I CAN'T GET PAST THAT rofl) I think, "my kinda guy."

What's happening to me?? :D